I have NEVER in my 30 plus years of existence properly loved myself enough to put my needs first. For as long as I can remember I have always felt obligated to take care of everyone else around me before I could even think to take care of ME. I was put on a guilt trip if I didn't make sure everyone else was ok before myself. The most devastating thing of it all is, that even today, I don't know how to turn off this flaw of mine.
You can't imagine how many times I've questioned 'my' God as to why He's made me so vulnerable to this weakness. What hurts is people like myself get taken advantage of by people we love most. Dare to say, "No" and watch them forget all the times you've said, "Yes".
I wish I could tell you that I've conquered my shortcoming, but unfortunately I'm still working on it. I've wished many of days that I could change the way I am, but I keep getting the same response, "I didn't make you that way", le'sigh.
Empaths, like myself are often seen as "pretty" packages. What the world doesn't see are the 'FRAGILE HANDLE WITH CARE' stickers that hide our broken contents.
